first and formost is
Alcnaurewen:
6ft 175 lbs
Elven characteristics
Skin: white with gold marble markings
Hair: long straight white with lavender highlights
Eyes: sapphire blue
Clothing: crimson red robes with a golden sash (and usually barefoot)
Weapon: calymore with black entracate handle with a broken heart on it

she is a goddess of magic, forgiveness, hope, and maternity so pretty much protective, understanding, hopeful, and above all powerful. she is also part earthen elemental, so she is one with nature, hence barefoot.


Hellcat A.K.A. Aurora Matherson
5ft 8 in
hardened face, with saddened eyes
skin: caucasian
hair: med length wavy red
eyes: forest green
clothing: (civilian clothing: designer style; slacks, business-type blouse, duster jacket, ankle boots) (persona clothing: black leather duster with flames licking up from the hem, red knee high front laced boots, black spandex-type shorts, black tank-top, and a black eye mask)
Weapon: fire

she is a pyrokenetic with supreme mastery. she also has a "pet" that looks like a tiger with sabre-tooth fangs, darker orange with black stripes mimicing tribal flames and a long tail. she is a hero that has seen her share of pain. while deeply tourmented on the inside, (she struggles not to let her desire to forsake a hopeless world take over and become a villianess) she continues to protect thoes that are too weak to do it themselves.

....ok...spent three hours on this...couldn't focus...will be back tomorrow with some more...sorry :S

just letting everyone know that i am still alive. no internet at home, but still getting on whenever i can. been really busy lately, which of course, isn't new. haven't gotten a chance to make any new patterns recently, but hopefully that will change.

been working on bridal party dresses for my frend Zera since her wedding is coming up soon. also been helping my adopted brother take care of his late mothers estate. been trying to take care of my medical crap and not getting very far with anything. i have physical therapy every week, plus 3 different specialists i have to go to for other conditions. and i have been driving a roommate to work an hour from home 3 to 4 times a week, so if she works an 8 hr shift, i am gone at least 10 hours of the day.

i have determined that i am one of thoes people that has to keep busy. i put myself in these situations and then proceed to bitch about it, but honestly, i would go ape shit with nothing to do, so i can't really blame anyone for taking up my time. i do however hate the fact that i haven't been able to stitch in a while. it is one of very few outlets that i have.

on a happy note, i have been loosing weight lately. in the last year so far it has been about 70 lbs. i am 2 sizes away from my average size in high school, 4 from my smallest. this makes me happy, save for the fact that i really don't want to make my dress for Zera's wedding then have to alter the hell out of it two days before the event.

well, i have to head out to my mothers, so i guess i will have to chat it up later. LATERS!!

ok, so i don't think i will be on again anytime soon, or be putting up anything for a bit.

thursday i was in way more pain than usual, so i was vetoed and carted off to the er. wouldn't have had to if the back pain hadn't started radiating into my leg causing it to go numb.

anyway, after spending 4 hours laying on a bed bitching that if all i was gonna be doing was laying there i could have done it at home and wouldn't be costing me an arm and a leg, the doc finally came in and informed me that i quite possibly slipped a disc in my lower back and we couldn't be sure because there is no mri technician on call that night.

so, now i have to tough this shit out till tomorrow when i can call my real doctor and be like "HELP ME!!!" the er gave me a shot of dilaudid (50x more potent than morphine), toridal (an anti-inflamitory), and adovan (pretty decent muscle relaxant) and i was still wimpering on the way home that i could still feel it, but, apparently i was too high to care.

i got in a psudo-argument with my brother. i was like...dude...thank you...you are soo sweet...i love you. he said "yep, your high". my response "nope...i'm a bitch, thats what i am."

apparently it was all quite comical to everyone in the car.

also, i have no internet at home right now. i am down at the public library leaching the wi-fi so that i can do some basic things. hopefully i will have my net and tv back by the end of next month.

my stitching really isn't going anywhere. i want to stitch, i really do, but i am always so tired by the time i get home, i just cant seem to pick up the needle. hopefully i will be able to teach my roommate how to drive a stick soon, so she can drive her own happy ass to work every day. driving to everett from bellingham really really sucks.

what else....hmmmmmm...oh...i blew a tire on my car last week. at like 11:30 at night in the middle of friggin nowhere. i was able to change it myself, but, christ, how many bad things do i need to happen?!

i have several pattern ideas that hopefully i will spend the next couple weeks of bed rest (which seems to be the only real answer to a slipped disc) working on.

well, i think that is everything, and the longest journal entry to date. hope all is well with everyone else...or at least going better for you than it is for me. LATERS!!!!

so, i have been playing around with an idea that a friend gave me several months ago. she thinks that i could possibly commission making patterns and or physically stitching them. i don't know if i actually have a big enough watchers list for that kind of thing. so i am asking for advice.

also, i am wanting to actually get some characters of mine commissioned, and i am wanting imput on some good artists that don't charge like $80 per chara. i am into comic book style, considering they are comic based charas.

short blog, i know, but i have a lot of shit going on, as usual, but my migranes are coming back, and thoes that really know me, know this isn't a good sign.

ok, so i haven't made any new posts in awhile, so i figured i might as well clue people in.

well, i moved into a new place in april and it is working out pretty well. cept for not having any damn fans or and air conditioner, but oh well. alls good on that front.

now onto the hell that has been the last week.

my princess kitty got pregnant a few months ago, but i have been so damn busy i couldn't really tell when it happened. last tuesday night she went into labor. ok, yay, new little kitties to love. or not... by wednesday she hadn't actually given birth yet, so i called my vet. who, of course, had to be so damn busy they didn't have any room. well, they managed to make some room for me and i took her in. at this point she had been in labor from 10pm to 4pm. they decided that she needed an emergency c-section and to spay her as well. turns out her body is just too small to handle birthing. well, they come out of the back room around 6 and tell me that none of the kittens survived. bummer. well, i would have loved to have them, but i didn't really get to get attached to them, so it didn't hurt as bad as it could have. and then they tell me that have to keep my princess over-night. i really didn't like that idea, but i had to leave her.

as i left the vet to take the little tiny bodies to my fathers house to burry them next to their grandpa, my car decides it hates me. fuckin joy. i call my dad to rescue me abot two miles from his house. 20 minutes later he finally shows up in his truck that decided to die along the way to get me. does this bad luck have no end? so he tows me to his house, and begins to look at my car as i start to dig the grave. so, i think i must mention that it has been friggin hotter than hell up here and i am near wanting to die just from being sweaty and icky and all around nasty feeling.

but, it does get better. today i went on a 4 hour drive to pick up my newest babies. one of my roomates found an add on craigslist for two free kittens to a good home. well, of course i had to see them on the day i started my period (oh yeah, forgot to mention that one too). and i fall madly in love with them. the add was posted at 3pm and i called at almost 10pm and, apparently my luck decided to change and they were still available. so, i made plans to go get them today and i did. they are so damn adorible. on the way home my car gets pissed off again, and i sit there praying to every god i know to let me get home. since my dad went camping yesterday and i can't call him to rescue me. thankfully the car at least gets to my dads house where i am housesitting until he gets back tomorrow.

anyway, back to the kitties. my thoughts are these (watching too much pushing dasies): not only did my roomates bunny pass away the same day my cat went into labor and the whole catastrophe started, but i am really afraid of how princess will handle not having her babies. so, maybe if i do it right, she will feel like she has her babies, and the rest of the household has a coping device. and sadly, now that i have these adorible bundles, i am afraid it was a mistake. was it?