well, not up to much right now, fixed the laptop....for all of three friggin days then my harddrive fried. that totally sucks...specially since that is where i did most of my computer work anyway. i hurt to much to constantly sit at the desktop, and some of these patterns that i produce take quite a bit of work. oh well, if i did it once, i can do it again.

hopefully my mother will stop draggin me away from stitchin to do crap at her house. love her to death, really do, but damn it, i got my own shit i am tryin to do. lol. i go down there to help with one or two things, and next thing i know i am cleaning my old room which i haven't slept in for 7 years. since when did that become my responsibility?! shes the one throwin all the crap in there. let her do it. ok, so i say this, but i know she is a pretty busy woman and could really use the help.

still having constant battles with my ex-husband. my brother lives with me and is mentally un-equiped. so i get that he and my husband are still friends and like to hang out, but i tend to have my own life, as well as keeping my brothers schedule in mind. why my ex can not seem to get it into his thick ass head that when i tell him i need my brother back i mean it, i will never quite understand. we are constantly fighting and he is being an ass hole about it. tells me that there is more than just my wants and needs to be considered. well, no shit, but you've had him for three days and i was suposed to get him back yesterday. i have plans of my own that involve my brother and i can't really do it with out him.

ok...done with the rant about stupid men, really not what you guys that do read this come here for. anyway, other than that, all is going pretty well. getting a little depressed that it has been over a year since i was in a relationship, but i keep reminding myself that this is actually what i wanted. i wanted time to myself to reflect and keep from jumping into something too soon. the biggest question then becomes, do i think i am really ready to be in one now, or is it simply that i don't want to be alone anymore?

and on that note i am gonna go and actually watch this movie with my brother, he really wants to watch it, so i guess i should. till next time...

laters!